Body Positive Power.
A few months ago, my sister recommended this book to me and I finally got around to reading it. I normally wait to post my book reviews at the end of the month, but I couldn’t wait to share this one with y’all.
For those of you who follow me, you probably are aware of my past eating disorder struggles and how I began to overcome those disordered actions. One thing that I have learned is that it is one thing to change your actions, but it is another to change your mind. I may not indulge in those behaviors any more, but those past thoughts are something I have to actively keep in check.
Megan Jayne Crabbe AKA “Body Positive Panda” gives us a clear look into what the diet industry has been selling us. When push comes to shove, money talks and young people have been made to believe that they need to look a certain way to measure up. As we scroll through our Instagrams, it is impossible to dodge countless weight loss ads and airbrushed photos.
I can speak firsthand to this pressure I felt as a young teenager. At the age of 16, I had already bought “hardcore” diet pills and dreamed of losing 30 pounds. I would fantasize about what my life would be like once I had achieved perfection. The truth? All of these restrictions made my life absolutely miserable.
From unfounded diet plans to Skinny Detox Tea(which is essentially laxatives), we are constantly being told that to be loved we need to be different. We need to be “better” than what we are now.
Meghan shares her story of battling anorexia and how this disease almost took her life. She remembers seeing her father break down in tears as a doctor told her parents that she may not make it through the night. And why was she there? She was led to believe that her body was unacceptable and not worthy of love.
One story that stood out to me was her during her time at a weight loss group at the YMCA. She was surrounded by a wide variety of people. Some were obese, some were average, and some looked like they didn’t have a pound to lose. She recalls meeting a 70 year old women in the group that hated the way she looked. She would have given anything to be thin.
A reoccuring theme Megan brings up in her book is this: Are you willing to live this way forever? Are you willing to continue yo-yo dieting out of self hatred? Are you willing to carry the weight of that insecurity? Are you willing to miss out on birthday parties because you are afraid to eat cake? Are you willing to be 70 years old and still be on a diet?
Deep in my soul, I was screaming NO! I am not willing. I am not willing to count calories forever. I am not willing to let food be a point of stress for me. I am not willing to feel insecure about my body. Most importantly, I am 100% unwilling to let my future daughters see their mother hating herself.
Many of us sit around being annoyed with our bodies, without thanking it for how it serves us every second of the day. It fights for us. It breathes without command. It fights sickness. It keeps us alive.
I for one am NOT WILLING to let something as shallow as weight and cellulite dictate my life. I have been recovered for awhile now, but this book helps facilitate a necessary healing in my mind as well.
For anyone who has ever felt less than, which I’m sure is everyone, I highly recommend reading Body Positive Power. Megan does a wonderful job of opening our eyes to the absurdity of “the perfect body type”, which ironically changes almost every decade. We have so much more to offer this world than the way we look. We get the chance to spread kindness and create change. We have the ability to bring hope and share our souls with one another.
My mind swarms with ideas of how I want to spend this life and how I can leave this world better than how I found it. I have too many dreams in my mind to make space for meaningless thoughts about calories. I am more than that. You are more than that.