Eating Disorder Awareness

Happy to feel free 🌺

I was working a lot of overtime during National Eating Disorder Awareness Week, but I’d still like to share a little bit of my process now.
It has been 6 months since I killed my scale with a hammer, and it was the best decision I could have made for my self.

You Are More Than A Number
At the age of 16, I was buying diet pills and sneaking them into my room. I would chew food and spit it out. I would workout 6 days a week, and limit my calories to the amount a child should eat.

After a hard break up, I decided I NEEDED to be skinny and lost 30 pounds in 2 months. I would weigh myself every single morning… sometimes multiple times a day. The past few years have been a process of healing the part of my heart that was convinced I needed to be skinny to be accepted.

I no longer want to feel tiny and frail, I want to feel healthy and strong. Is it always easy? Heck no! There are days where I think about food too much or I hear past eating disorder thoughts try to weasel their way back in. The difference is that I now know that my thoughts don’t have to become my actions. I have a choice in what thoughts I choose to feed and which ones I call bs on.

There is always hope my friends. You are worth far more than a number💕

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7 Comments

  1. Thank you for sharing your story. I have a friend who has an eating disorder and I struggle with helping her as she doesn’t see anything wrong with what shes doing. I hope that one day she can find the strength like yourself to beat this. 🙂

  2. Thank you for sharing this. It’s very important to remember that our thoughts do not define us. Just because we have negative thoughts doesn’t mean we’re negative people. Thank you. I’m currently really struggling with my eating disorder, but I decided to start sharing my story on my blog (www.blurrythought.com) in the hopes that I will help both myself and other people while raising awareness. I haven’t been able to smash the scales yet, but one day. You’re glowing, too!

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