Eating Disorder Awareness

Happy to feel free 🌺

I was working a lot of overtime during National Eating Disorder Awareness Week, but I’d still like to share a little bit of my process now.
It has been 6 months since I killed my scale with a hammer, and it was the best decision I could have made for my self.

You Are More Than A Number
At the age of 16, I was buying diet pills and sneaking them into my room. I would chew food and spit it out. I would workout 6 days a week, and limit my calories to the amount a child should eat.

After a hard break up, I decided I NEEDED to be skinny and lost 30 pounds in 2 months. I would weigh myself every single morning… sometimes multiple times a day. The past few years have been a process of healing the part of my heart that was convinced I needed to be skinny to be accepted.

I no longer want to feel tiny and frail, I want to feel healthy and strong. Is it always easy? Heck no! There are days where I think about food too much or I hear past eating disorder thoughts try to weasel their way back in. The difference is that I now know that my thoughts don’t have to become my actions. I have a choice in what thoughts I choose to feed and which ones I call bs on.

There is always hope my friends. You are worth far more than a number💕

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4 Comments

  1. Thank you for sharing your story. I have a friend who has an eating disorder and I struggle with helping her as she doesn’t see anything wrong with what shes doing. I hope that one day she can find the strength like yourself to beat this. 🙂

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