If you have been following my journey, you know that I used to struggle with disordered eating. For years I indulged in harmful behaviors against my body, but through hard work and support I have kicked those destructive habits. You can read about my recovery here.
With that being said, I want to be vulnerable and share that this time of year can be really difficult and triggering for me. Having had an eating disorder in the past, it can be easy for old anxieties to reappear. It can often feel as if I’m in a tug of war battle with myself. Horrible thoughts will try to enter in and tell me lies. Lies such as:
“You will never be good enough. You will gain 10 pounds if you eat that. Everyone is judging you. It will take you months to work off this meal.”
While another part of my heart, the HEALTHY part, tells me a completely different story. The real story.
If you are experiencing any of those worries this holiday season, you are not alone. You are enough. You deserve to treat yourself without negative thoughts stealing your joy. Here are some positive affirmations you can repeat when the lies get a little too loud:
“I am enough.
I am beautiful.
I will not be afraid of a number.
How I feel about myself has nothing to do with what I eat or don’t eat.
Hating myself has never helped me.
By eating, I am showing strength, not weakness.
I don’t have to believe what I think.”
In the end, those thoughts are just thoughts. You don’t have to act on them, and you can choose to listen to the voice that has your best interest at heart ❤️
Happy Holidays my friends! Go eat a cookie 🍪 Drink some hot chocolate ☕️