The last few weeks, I have been wanting to start featuring strong women who inspire my soul. When I read this post from Mariah, I knew that I had to share it. She is the perfect example of how to embrace ourselves NOW and give ourselves the self love that we so desperately need.
I have struggled with acne on and off for about 9 years. It’s been a source of shame, pain, and self-disqualification from beauty and opportunity. I’ve tried my hardest to cover it- spending thousands of dollars on make-up and products to ease the inflammation. It’s gone away for a year and then came back with a vengeance (I’m talking to you June 2018). I’ve done all I can to make sure no one sees ALL of it. But, all that changed when I got married. Daniel sees every outbreak, every painful blemish, and ALL the backne. He still tells me I’m beautiful and kisses me all over my face. He makes me stare at myself in the mirror and tells me what he sees. He fights so hard for me in the battle to believe I can be beautiful WITH acne. But, he can only take the belief so far. What I realized is that it is my responsibly as a woman and a wife to find the beauty… and hell, the sexiness of myself with no make up and an acne breakout.
We are in an amazing time in history where we are celebrating all types of bodies. We are declaring that all bodies are beautiful and worthy of love. However, skin conditions are less popular and maybe even have a different type of shame attached (lets be honest, this picture is not me at my worst- but this is as vulnerable as I was ready for heyyo). Skin conditions, like weight are associated with an unhealthy lifestyle, using bad products, poor diet, and not using good hygiene practices. Look, all those things can contribute to skin conditions like acne, but sometimes there are underlying issues like hormones, or digestive problems (me and me) that are causing the breakouts.. and they can take YEARS to resolve.
So, I have a choice. I can either hate my face and my skin and my body for not doing what I want. OR I can choose to love my skin and face and body. I can choose to see the beauty of my femininity instead of the imperfections of my skin. I can feed myself nourishing foods that promote healing. And I can give myself permission to believe in my worthiness NOW and beauty NOW. Perfect skin may never arrive for me but I don’t think that would have silenced the lie inside my heart that perfection equals worthiness. So thank-you acne for making me come face-to-face with an accusation that was meant to make me count my self out, but has instead helped me find increasing bravery within. Whether it be showing your friend your broken out face with no make-up on for the first time, posting a picture of you rocking your eczema, or maybe not wearing clothes that conceal your psoriasis. Whatever it is, whatever you are ready for just own your sexy skin.