Thanking My Body

Living with a chronic illness makes it easy to hate your body. It isn’t working how it should and it feels as if it won’t stop letting you down. It is supposed to be simple, right? Eat healthy, exercise, manage stress, and you should be good to go. Unfortunately, people living with chronic illnesses know that it is not that simple.

When I first got sick I was furious at my body. How could it betray me like this? I took care of it and did everything I could to keep it happy. It no longer felt like my body was connected to my spirit, it was now something I envisioned myself fighting against.

As time has passed, I began to make the choice to embrace a lifestyle of gratitude. I would make myself say a list of three things that I was thankful for everyday. For example:

  • I am thankful that I have a loving family and kind husband
  • I am thankful that I have clean water to drink
  • I am thankful I have access to so many books that help me cope with my emotional pain

But I was never thankful for my body; that felt like a given.

Most of you know that yoga is one of my favorite hobbies. It has the magical power of lifting my mood in just 5 minutes. One day as I laid in shavasana, I focused on my breath. A realization washed over me in an instant: I was breathing. My body was breathing for me. It is not something I have to think about. It is not something I will myself to do 24/7. Still, my body breathes.

How many other things does my body do to protect me everyday that goes unnoticed? How often do I not give it the credit it deserves? In that moment I understood that I had been viewing my body wrong. My body was fighting for me. My body has been keeping me alive. My body is working to fight this sickness and doing the best that it can.

Now my list of gratitude looks something like this:

  • I am thankful that my body breathes
  • I am thankful that I can walk, dance, and do yoga
  • I am thankful for all of the things that my immune system does to protect me

I say to my body, “Thank you for thanking care of me”.

I had learned to love my mind and soul, but had rejected my body. Now I realize that there is no reason to keep up this battle. Why would I want to go to war against a part of myself? I am still in pain, there are good days and bad days, but EVERYDAY I am alive. That is something to be thankful for.

  1. I love this. I fought a similar battle with my perception of my body after a miscarriage. I was angry because my body didn’t do what it was supposed to do (carry a baby to term). And so, I ran so that I could find a healthy way to punish my body for not doing what it was supposed to do (every kilometer I pushed myself further than I thought I could go, it was out of anger at my body). But THEN, I realized that my body was getting me out into the world, taking me on trails, so that I could run and heal. My body was bringing me peace.

    I think the universe brings us back to our own truth, if we’ll only allow it to…

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  3. You’re absolutely right. Our bodies crave acceptance and appreciation. Sounds like you really had an ah-ha moment on your yoga mat. That’s beautiful!

  4. How I haven’t commented on this yet, I don’t know. I love this post so much. It can be SO hard to love your body when it’s not exactly loving you back, but even with chronic illness, there’s so much about our bodies to be grateful for! Also, I definitely need to get back into yoga…

  5. Loved this post! I think that we have so much to be thankful for but sometimes we forget about the little things. I liked how you shined a lot of positivity on yourself and your body as well.

  6. There are so many days that I have to remind myself to be thankful that I opened my eyes instead of complaining! I realize that I have so much to be thankful for and grateful to be around people who I love.

  7. As a friend with chronic illness as well as an illness that has run its course but left lasting aside effects—thank you. What an important reminder that we need to be thankful for what we have.

  8. this is so true! the same goes for mental illness where it feels like you dont have control over your mind or feelings. it’s so easy to get angry and frustrated at yourself.

  9. Oh… Oh YES! I’m so glad you feel this and share this perception change! It makes such a huge difference in how we look at ourselves. Bless you, because this is exactly what I needed to read.

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