Can you find magic in everyday life? Easier said than done, but if we redefine what deserves our attention, it’s possible. It takes opening our eyes and turning back to the basics. It can be easy to get caught up in the “big” things in life. What we want to do as our career, finances, and perhaps even what kind of legacy we want to leave. It is no wonder that so many, myself included, find themselves overwhelmed. The pressure to reach our “end goal” can be daunting. Most can admit that we have a picture in our mind of what it will look like once we have “arrived”. One of being financially stable, securing a good job, or maybe we will get married and have kids. We will magically leave our worries behind and get out of the “survival mode” we have become so uncomfortably comfortable living in.
Until that day comes, which who knows if it ever will, what are we doing in the meantime?
2016 brought all of these fears and worries to the forefront of my mind. I left behind my previous dream career, and I decided that it wasn’t what I wanted for my life. This left me with absolutely no idea what I aspired for anymore. A few months prior I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, a chronic pain condition, that seemed to turn my world upside down. I went from working 40 hours a week to being bedridden. Simple tasks such as walking through the grocery store became full blown ordeals. The pain became so strong that even the fabric of my clothes brought me immense pain. I was newly married and I was supposed to be in the happiest season of my life. Instead, I felt like a failure; a failure as a person and as a wife. In the darkness of this season, I had to learn to let go of what I thought it meant to succeed in life. I clung to the little things to get me through each day.
We have all gone through dark seasons, you may even be in one now; whether it be from divorce, illness, losing your job, or doubting everything you’ve once held dear. My advice to you is this: focus on the little things that bring you joy, because I assure you they are bigger than you think.
I started to read again. I reawakened my love for writing. I held my family and friends close to my heart, and I shedded some much needed tears. I got out of the house, if only for 10 minutes, to appreciate the trees outside my apartment. I went to pet stores to play with puppies, and made a point to drink good coffee at my favorite places. I learned to give myself grace and compassion to handle the unexpected circumstances that had come my way.
It wasn’t easy to build a life again after feeling like so much had been taken away from me, but I learned to love the messy process. The process of defining what is most important to me. I let go of what I thought it meant to be a successful person and focused on the kind of person I wanted to be.
I wanted to be a person who is friendly to all. Become patient and loving. Someone who sees the good when surrounded by the bad. A person who finds peace within herself and doesn’t need all of the puzzle pieces to fit together quite yet, or ever. I may not have “arrived” at this yet, but I am loving every second of becoming the person that I want to be.
This blog is dear to my heart, and I can’t wait to share more with all of you. It is meant to be raw, real, fun, uplifting, and a place to have an honest conversation about what it means to be a human in this crazy world.
“And suddenly you know… It’s time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings.”